May 2013


It’s Friday! Hurray!! I’m in for a wonderful weekend. Tomorrow is my Dad’s birthday party, and I can’t wait.

Today I’m blogging with Tiffany again…

happyweekI got a new sticker for the back of my phone! It’s from Splat! Coffee and Such. My favorite place for treats! I went last night with a teenage girl from my church, Emily. We go every Thursday night. They put stickers on their cups. We were drinking our Italian Sodas, and she started peeling her sticker off, so I did, too. And, I won!! I got mine off before her, and then I stuck it on my phone. So, now my phone is extra fancy.

Lizzy-Jane, Claire and I went to help set up for the Fine Arts Academy recital today. We were climbing down the stairs, and I was holding Claire’s hand super tight and counting the steps. When I said 2, Claire said 2, too, and then continued to say it for every step. That’s the first time she has said a number, y’all! She’s getting more and more verbal, and it makes me so happy!

Chris remembered to soak the black beans yesterday morning, so I could cook them for dinner. He rocks! He makes me so happy. It slipped my mind, we would have had to move on to plan B if he didn’t do that. He also got the flank steak out of the freezer yesterday morning to defrost for tonight’s dinner, and marinated it last night! I’m cooking it in the slow cooker right now, and it smells SO good!! I’m so excited to eat it!!!!!

Monday, while doing laundry, I got to watch the series finale of Smash. It was two hours! I’m very, very sad that it is over. But, the finale was very good and exciting. I want to get the first and second (last) season for Christmas, so I can watch them over and over again. So much fun.

Also on Monday, Claire walked up to Lizzy-Jane and laid her head on her chest and gave her a big hug. It was so cute! I really wish I had a picture of it.

I started a reading plan this week to read through the Bible in a year!! I”m so excited to be doing it again. It’s been a looong time since I devoted the time to daily reading and study. I’m in Genesis right now, and I’m loving it. I’m doing it on a Bible app on my phone. I was wondering how I was going to do it, because most plans start in January, and I just randomly looked on my app, and found the perfect plan! So, next year on May 28th I will be done! And, then I can just do it again.

Chris cleaned the bathrooms! I told you he was awesome, and now I have sparkly clean bathrooms to prove it.

And, finally, I am happy this week, because within a week  we will have the AC fixed in our car! That means no more driving with the windows down, listening to mac trucks roar by and sweating our tails off!

There are so many things for which I am thankful. So many things. So many that I think it might be a good idea to count my blessings. So, today I have decided to try a new link up. Today I am joining There’s Just One Mommy for Thankful Thursday.

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Count your blessings. Count them one by one.

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I am thankful for all the beauty that is spring! And people with green thumbs who can cultivate this beauty!!

2. I am thankful for a good church family to study with, serve with, love with and grow with!

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I am thankful for my two beautiful and playful little princesses. And, for a Gracious and Generous GG. And for a fun afternoon at Carolina Lily drinking Fairy tea, eating good food and looking at pretty things.

3. I am thankful for good health. I’m thankful to be able to grocery shop and feed my family healthy meals. I’m thankful to be able to do laundry and dishes. And, I am thankful to be able to pay bills.

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I am thankful for precious moments like this, when Claire falls asleep wherever she is, but with “B” close by of course!

5. I am thankful for weekly group therapy.

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I am thankful for a husband who loves, plays with and cares for his little girls. I’m also thankful for this Daddy’s Girl! As well as the other one, who is definitely a Mommy’s Girl!!

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I”m also thankful for good friends, and fun birthday parties!

The she is me. I’m all that. I’m just awesome. Really! Or at least I’m thinking this might be a good exercise. And, not the *in futility* kind. In therapy one often has to list positive attributes about oneself. And, it IS very hard. I mean really, if you are depressed enough to be in the hospital, you probably can’t come up with 1 good thing about yourself. Much less 6. Much less 15! But, I’m going to try. (By the way, I’m not depressed right now. Over six weeks without any bipolar symptoms! Yay!!)

So, I’m linking up with Mama Kat again this week. Follow the link below if you want to see her prompts this week.

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This week I chose #1.

1.) 15 Reasons You’re Awesome. (inspired by LouLou’s Views)

And, yes, you should follow the above link. LouLou is pretty cool, too!

So, here goes…in no particular order.

1. I’m a great actress. Really! This is where my identity came from for many years. If you’ve never seen it, you’ll just have to take my word for it. 😉 Because, now I’m mostly retired. If you go to my church, you have probably seen me perform though, and you probably will again.

2. I did three loads of laundry yesterday. And, folded and put them all away. That is no small feat with little ones under my feet!

3. I can change a dirty diaper without gagging, while fighting with a bucking bronco.

4. I’m well read. So, one would think I might know some stuff.

5. I’ve been exercising 7-10 times a week for going on 7 weeks now! Yeah, there are many who envy me.

6. I can memorize like no ones business. Really. I once memorized the first 18 chapters of Proverbs.

7. I’m a good friend. But, my friends are awesome, too. So, they make it easy.

8. I’m a good pillow for sleep for a 2 year old and a 4 year old.

9. I get up with my husband at 5 am, even if I don’t need to take him to work that day in order to have the car, just so I can make him coffee and breakfast.

10. I sing first soprano. Apparently, from what I hear, first sopranos are always the coolest.

11. I can bake a mean checkerboard butter cake.

12. I am willing to read book after book after book…ad nauseum to my daughter.

13. Oops, I almost forgot, I have a really great laugh! I got that from my Mom. She is awesome, too.

14. I can tolerate a shopping trip for a week’s worth of groceries, with two girls, one who is *NOT* in the cart anymore, while adding up the purchases on my phone calculator and marking things off my list.

15. AND…I have the best husband this side of the Mississippi. So, by association, I too, must be awesome!!

So, why are you awesome? I do actually want to know. Because, I’m sure you are!!

happyweekI’m linking up with Tiffany again this week. I think this is my favorite post of the week. You should definitely follow the link above, and read Tiffany’s Happy This Week post. Hers are ALWAYS great!

I’m excited about a project my Mother-In-Law is doing for us. Last Friday my friend, Miss Daphene, gave us a paper doll book from 1979! She got it from a yard sale, and it has never been cut into! Chris came up with the idea to paste the dolls onto wood cut outs, so they will last longer. His mom came up with the idea of pasting the clothes onto floppy magnets, and sinking metal into the wood so the two can easily attach. The dolls and costumes are beautiful, and I can’t wait to play with these toys with Lizzy-Jane and Claire! I’m so thankful my Mother-In-Law is good with a scroll saw, and willing to do this intricate project for us!!

I got new clothes!! I got new clothes!!! I found a new store in a nearby town called My Big Sister’s Closet. It is a consignment store, so it has good prices, but the best part is it is size 14 and up. I’ve never seen so many nice clothes, in my size, that I can afford, in one place. It is a thrill!! PLUS, I get to trade in some of my clothes I don’t wear anymore, and as I lose weight, I can continue to trade in clothes. This is a big confidence booster!

I’m writing again. It feels so good to sit and write several times a week. I need the creative outlet. It helps keep the voices out of my head. Plus, it’s just plain fun and rewarding. I love all of my blog readers, and being able to publish my words with the push of a button. What did we do before the internet? I do remember starting to write in the 6th grade. I always wanted to read my stories out loud in class, because I loved it so much. That year I said I wanted to be a writer when I grew up. But, the next year I started acting, and that took over my life for the next 26 years. I still wrote some during that time, but acting was my primary creative outlet. But, now it is writing again. I’m so thankful to have this outlet. And, I am so thankful that God has given me this gift.

Oh, and I’m starting to write a play.  It is called “Ruth’s Reward”, and is about the life of Ruth and Boaz. I’m doing a two week Drama Camp with the Fine Arts Academy at First Baptist Church – Belmont this summer, and we will produce this play. If you have kids who are interested, sign them up! The camp runs M-F July 29th through August 9th from 9-11:30 am. The best part is that there is no cost involved!

I’m also happy this week, because I am closing out six weeks of good health! It has been seven years since I have had such a long streak of happiness with no symptoms from my Bipolar Disorder. Finally, the medicine mixed with exercise and weekly group therapy is working!! I am thrilled, and I have confidence that this streak will continue. I may hit some rough patches, but I will fight through them.

You know, sometimes it is really the small stuff that makes us the happiest. And, this week I am happy, because I have done a very good job of keeping the kitchen clean. The kitchen is often a herculean task, but I find it is easier if I stay on top of it little by little.

2013-05-22 12.04.01-2 2013-05-22 17.14.45You know my girls make me happy all the time. These are some precious memories from the week. The top one Lizzy-Jane actually took herself. We were in a Greek Restaurant with GG. It was a lot of fun. The second one I took of Lizzy-Jane. We were on our way to GG’s and the sun was in her eyes, so I handed her her Daddy’s sun glasses. She looked so cute I had to take a picture!

OK, so I’m linking up with Mama Kat twice this week. I know! Crazy, right? But, I am. This time I’ve chosen the second prompt.

2.) List six random facts about yourself.

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I’m even a bit of a copy cat today. I’m stealing Mama Kat’s very own idea. Instead of just giving you six random facts about myself, I’m going to share six random facts about my husband and I. He is my favorite person, after all. My better half. Ha!

Here we go…hold on tight!!

1. We met over Sunday lunch at a Mexican Restaurant (our favorite) (actually he says his favorite is pizza, but I say *our* favorite is Mexican).  A mutual friend introduced us. We all three came from different churches to share that meal.

2. We *used* to love to play Scrabble quite often. And, we used to share the winning very well. Now I’m just tired of getting beat. Mutilated quite frankly. So, we don’t play very often anymore.

3. We love to go to the movies. But, now we have two children, so we don’t do that as often either.

4. We do watch TV together quite frequently though. But, we don’t have cable or any TV channels. Yep, you heard that right. We watch on the internet. Our first TV show we watched together was Alias. I got them delivered through Netflix while we were dating. We finished up all the seasons shortly after we got married. We LOVED it!!

5. He is an incredible cook, though I do cook *sometimes*. He makes the most incredible meals, and I eat them. We’re a great team like that.

6. He’s awesome! Really he is. Since I was pregnant with Lizzy-Jane, about five years ago, I’ve only cleaned the bathroom twice. He always does it!! I hate that job.

I hope those were random enough. And, somewhat interesting. Tell me some random stuff about you and your other half!!

I got the idea for this post from dear Mama Kat. I know it is not Thursday yet, but I am posting this today anyway. Because, I can. Right?

So, I chose number four on her list this week.

4.) The last thing you lost.

If you want to get some inspiration from the ever popular Mama Kat, too, follow this link.

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“So, what was the last thing I lost?” You ask. Well, I will get to that it due time. First the process. I saw the prompt, and liked it, but I couldn’t think of the last thing I lost. I mean, truly, I lose things all the time, so why couldn’t I think of the last thing. Then it hit me…You’ll just have to wait.

Then, as I was thinking about how to form the blog, I decided to write a poem. For inspiration I read some Sylvia Plath poetry. But, she doesn’t have a strict construct to follow, say like a sonnet, and I can’t write like her. So, I’ve decided to write like me. Here it goes…

 

 

LOST

I seem to lose
it a lot. In fact
I’m surprised I ever find it.

And, usually when I do
find it. I only lose it again
shortly after.

I have papers that prove this.
From the “loony bin”
if you will.

These papers prove that,
at times,
I’m as mad as a hatter.

I often lose my mind.
And, I can’t think straight,
sleep or do anything.

I often cry and sit
and stare. Sometimes
my mind moves too fast.

And, then I can’t sit still.
My heart races, and I jump
from one thing to another.

I lose touch with reality,
and contemplate ending
it all.

It is a very
dark
and scary place to be.

While there I’m
desperate to find
my mind, and be

Normal. The ever
illusive
Normal. My mind gone

I cry out,
in silence,
for help.

But, it seems to
never come.
And, I lose my

Faith. All is
lost. And I hate
God for leaving me there.

But, then as if by
a miracle,
the very breath of God.

I find it, again.

I’m linking up with Tiffany, over at Elastamom, today!

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If you would like to post about what has made you happy this week, too, go ahead and grab her button and link up!

So, what has made me happy this week, you ask? No, that’s not what you are asking. You are saying, “Oh my goodness, you are back, you are blogging again. What brought you back?” Well, actually both answers are the same. I’m happy this week, because I am back to writing, and I am back to writing because I am happy.

Mother’s Day made me really happy this week. I thoroughly enjoyed my time with my family. My brother and I, with our families, went to Mom and Dad’s (GG and Ol’Pappi’s) house to spend the afternoon and evening. It was wonderful. We played Scrabble, made home-made ice-cream, had a delicious dinner made by Ol’Pappi. and played baseball with the neighbors, in the cul-de-sac. I couldn’t have asked for more!!

And, then Monday morning I woke up feeling better! Yay. This is actually the end of my fifth week feeling great with no depression. That is nothing short of amazing. I did have a small blip last Thursday and Friday though, so I was very happy to feel back to my *normal* good self on Monday. I’ve been exercising 10 times a week, and every day is just a joy! Thank goodness for this good time. I pray that I can push through any future blips without any major depressive episodes.

So, apparently I told my Mom that I would get back to blogging once I passed the four week mark of feeling good. I don’t remember saying it, but she says I did, so I must have. It’s been over two years since I passed 3 weeks, so to do that, and then four, and now five…I really have to celebrate. And, writing is important to me, so I am glad to be back!!

We went to Dan Nicholas Park on Wednesday with GG. It was a lot of fun, and made me very happy.

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Yoga! Yoga made me happy this week!!

I’ve been doing yoga in the afternoons, with Chris. But, it was really hurting my back, and I was starting to think that I would have to give it up. But, I talked to my mentor, Tim, and he told me to push through. He had experienced something similar with yoga, and with time it worked itself out. So I did. And…yesterday I did yoga with no pain at all!! Hallelujah!

Claire made me happy this week. My girls make me happy every day, and this week Claire learned to eat an apple, “like an apple.” This is significant for two reasons. One, this girl has never liked fruit much. Other than bananas she just wouldn’t touch the stuff. One time Ol’Pappi got her to eat some apple, but he cut it up *REAL* small. Two, it is a big deal when any child learns to eat an apple whole, and you don’t *have* to cut them up anymore. So, when we discovered on Wednesday that she could bite into a whole apple, and wanted to, I was super happy! This is what she did to her apple yesterday…after about an hour.

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