I’m Afraid of Losing

I’m afraid of losing my Social Security benefits. Wow, I actually said that out loud.

When I was awarded Social Security Disability benefits I was told, by the judge, that my case would be reevaluated in three years. I’ve been prepared for that date. I know they may deem me healthy enough to work at that point. And, I’m prepared for it. But, I can’t *really* work now. But, there are so many things I want to do. Like sell 31 Gifts from my home, and move on up to earning money from my blog…but I’m scared.

The theme is pace after all, and what if I get started, and can’t follow through.

Or, worse yet, what if I make too much money and they yank my benefits. AND, force me to pay back some benefits. You see, I can make up to $12,000 dollars a year, but I have to report it, and right now I’m just plain scared. What if they yank it, and then I get really sick again. We depend on that money!!

Please don’t judge me too much by what you just read. It’s Wednesday, and I’m pouring my heart out. But, I’m also following some blogging advice I read recently on Pinterest; write something at least once a week that really scares you. This scares me. I don’t know what people will think of me after reading this, and I don’t know what they will say to me.

Only time will tell!



14 Comments Add yours

  1. Peggy says:

    It is normal to be scared about something like that. But you now have a plan… pacing yourself is the plan. I have another document about blogging that may help in your plan.

    And $1000 a month is a lot of money to clear from working.

    1. Thanks for the encouragement, Peggy. I would love to see that document.

  2. Definitely a scary place to be in! My father was on Social Security for a disability and he was always afraid he’d lose it- actually, I think my mom was more afraid of him losing it- b/c that was where her child support came from.

    1. It is a delicate balance.

  3. Kristen says:

    You know… one of the “probable posts of my heart” this week was exactly this. I get so worried because I wonder if some day they are going to come and say, “sorry… your son doesn’t deserve all that he gets.” *sigh* no judgement here. Good Luck

    1. Thanks, Kristen. It’s a relief to know that someone understands, and gets it!!

  4. dollimama says:

    Do you already sell 31? If you haven’t signed up with anyone, I sell it and would love to sponsor you! I’m new at it, but if you have questions you can ask me, I will be super honest.

    Also, I think it’s totally normal to be scared about this sort of thing. I guess just do your best and trust that the rest will be OK.

    1. I don’t sell it yet, but I do have a consultant. Thanks for the offer though. Do you like selling it? How much time does it take up?

  5. I’m on SSDI myself, and the love/hate relationship with it is scary and stressful. Where did you learn about how much you can make in a year? I’ve never gotten a straight answer from anyone about working without losing benefits.

    1. My lawyer told me I could make up to 12,000 dollars a year, and still be considered disabled.

  6. pattisj says:

    All I’ve ever heard is it’s very hard to qualify for disability in the first place. I’m sorry to hear how uneasy the thought of losing it makes you feel. Hoping for a good outcome for you.

    1. Yes it is. It took me two years to finish the application process, and finally get approved. Thank you, Patti, for your sweet/kind support!

  7. I understand about being scared of losing your income. And you have two beautiful daughters that would love to have their mom at home with them. Just keep working on your blog and your other ways of creating an income/job that you can live with. God will see you through it all.

    1. You are right, Karen. God will see me through!!

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